Saturday, April 26, 2008

Past... Present... Future...

I didn't grow up in a Christian home but I wouldn't change that for anything. I did eventually attend a Christian High School when I got saved and my parents gave me the option. I see God's hand in that. I met a guy online and talked to him for almost 4 years. He told me of a school in Michigan and I began praying about going to college there. It was 10 hours away, I didn't know a soul other than this guy and looking back now, I see God's hand in it. I met my now Husband and though we had a rough start, I am amazed at how close we have grown to each other and how much closer we have grown to the Lord. We didn't finish school but we did end up moving to Maryland to work with my former youth pastor, I see God's hand in that. It was a time of rest for us and a time to regroup and get our thoughts, heart, and feelings together. After Tim's accident we knew we needed to be doing more for God. It was a wake up call from God. God doesn't have to give us chances to do it right, He could just take us the moment we disobey, but God has something in store for Tim and I. We then found Granite. We know God was in that! Granite has taught us so much! It has taught us so much about the ministry, drawing closer to God, how to deal with people, and how to overcome our own issues. Then, 3 sunday evening's ago, Tim went forward to answer his call to preach. Ever since that night, things have changed. I don't know how to explain it. It's not a bad thing, but at this moment in my life, I don't know where I fit in. I believe this is God's way of preparing us for something big, but my heart aches for what we once had at Granite. We love Granite for all it has done for us. You will never find a more loving and caring church. The people will do anything for you. They are supportive and when someone says they are praying for you, you know its the truth! Before we left Michigan we attended a church there. We LOVED the people of the church, we wished we could pack them all up and take them with us, but that isn't God's plan. Just like with this church. We don't know where or when God will move us, but we do have a feeling it will be soon. We are in deep prayer and seeking God's will for us. I feel as if I don't fit in anymore...and that has been the most difficult part of this journey. I know serving God will not be easy, and that I have a lot to learn about being the wife of a person in full time christian service but please pray for me. Im not angry or bitter because of the situation. It just feels as if I'm all alone and God wants to teach me somethings, its not scary or a sad time, just a time I've never experienced before. Pray that I will learn, see, and understand why.

Much Love and Prayers
Ann Marie

Tuesday, April 22, 2008

An Exciting annoucement....

No, I'm not pregnant. I know that's what I would love to be announcing, but this is just as exciting!

Two Sunday evenings ago, my wonderful husband went forward and answered his call to the ministry!!! I have known for a while, and I know he has too but God has been doing some amazing things in our lives and Tim wanted to make it public his call to preach. What a blessing! We are not sure where God will have us go or do so we will continue doing what we have been doing at Granite. We work in the bus ministry (please pray for us as we are about to start a new bus route in the next couple of weeks!) and we work with the Bus Teen Boys. We are loving how God has worked in our lives and we LOVE watching God work in the lives of our bus kids as well as Teens! Tim is looking into completing his degree with Midwestern through correspondence and will be receiving the info this week. Please pray for us as we start this new journey in our lives. We know the devil will be doing his best to get in the way and discourage us but we have a GREAT and MIGHTY God who if we trust and look too will guide us.

Some more news....

April 9th there was a report on the news of a young boy who was struck by a falling tree limb and later passed away. That young, 7 year old boy was one of Tim and I bus kids. His name was Steven Richards. We remember a time when Steven came forward during super church for salvation. We have peace he is in heaven but his family is devastated. At the funeral our pastor preformed the service and about 30 people raised their hand for salvation. Please pray for this family as the mourn the loss of a dear loved one. It has been difficult on Tim and I as we try and answer the difficult questions from the family. It is not easy losing a loved one but it is more difficult to loss a child. This family has had so much tragedy in the last year we know this is God trying to get their attention.

Tim and I are doing well. Today is Tim's 30th birthday! He's cutting the grass right now but we have enjoyed the last 5 days off! We have enjoyed some alone time as well as met with our pastor today for lunch and we had a nice cookout Saturday in celebration for Tim's Birthday. We had friends and family there and enjoyed a great time of fellowship!

Well, I must finish cleaning our basement and enjoy the rest of this beautiful day! Please pray for us as we continue on our journey and serving God.


Monday, April 7, 2008

I can feel His presence in our lives...

It is one of the most amazing feelings I have ever encountered. I feel the hand of God moving in our lives and I don't know how to describe the emotions I am feeling. We have been struggling with a few things spiritually and I believe we have struggled so we would learn to draw closer to Him. For those of you who don't know who "Him" is...I'm talking about God. Tim and I sat down last night and had such a huge talk about what we need to focus on in our lives. We love our bus ministry so much. We see these kids every saturday and sunday and have become so attached to them. They are part of our lives. We are watching them grow, make choices, learn from consequences and one day, I pray to receive a phone call from them saying what God has done in their life. Our teen boys, are the reason we do what we do. I have seen such a HUGE change in them. God has really been working in their lives and I don't even know how to describe it. We have such a great core of boys and I am proud to call them our Teen boys! We know God has great and mighty things in store for them, and we pray that we are able to be a great example to them and that they know they can count on us. I am thankful that God has been using us. We do not deserve His grace and love but I am thankful for it.
I am thankful for a husband who is so hard working and selfless....he will do anything for anyone to help them. He's so trusting and loving. I love him more today than I did yesterday.

I'm feeling so blessed today....find your blessing today and thank God for them....

Matthew 5:16

Tuesday, April 1, 2008

April Showers bring May Flowers

Well we are now into our 4th month of the year and I'm telling you it just felt like last week was Christmas. I feel as if I truly understand that saying "Time Flies".

The last couple of weeks have been difficult. I know its due to my lack of dedication to the Lord. I also know its a trying and testing time in my life. Nothing new I suppose. I went to the dr to find out that I need to lose weight (I know I was shocked too......*insert sarcasm here*) in order to even consider having a child. My mom has mentioned on several occasions I need to have the gastric bypass surgery. Deep down inside I feel as if I am going the easy route though I know I'm not. I also think I am more cautious this time because of the "adventure" if thats what you want to call it that I went through last time. I will be making an appointment with my primary care physician to see about starting the task of getting approval....again. I suffer from borderline diabetes. As long as I'm on byetta I do not feel as if I am going to kill someone when I'm hungry. The joke here is, my insurance company will not approve the prescription because I have to try these other two forms of medication first *sigh*. Why take something away that is helping someone. So needless to say, without time to take off of work because there is just tooo much work and not enough time I haven't had the chance to go see the dr which means I am off my med. This now starts the snowball affect of me gaining back all the weight I have lost (mind you I do nothing different than when I am on the meds. I eat 6 small meals a day, excersize 3 days a week and am cautious about how much sugar I put in my system). I also feel as if i cannot make a rational decision when I am to the point of hunger. The other night a bunch of friends of ours were going out after church. They were taking their time, goofing off and chatting with others and I finally looked at Tim and said "Either we go home now or we go get food now I'm about to kill someone". Its not that I want to act like that but its almost like my brain goes into this "starvation" mode. I know I am far from starving but its like I want to go outside and hunt down someone and starting gnawing on the raw meat of my kill. I know you may be thinking that I am a little or a lot crazy and you would be correct. Try controlling that urge. It usually ends up in Tim and I fighting! lol. My poor husband. He's stuck in there 7 years, I just hope he can handle the next 60 ;)

We are still having issues with the neighbors. Its to the point that every little thing they do makes me want to go and knock their heads off. We are pretty sure they are dealing drugs and they are not respectful of our property. We have posted signs and actually have put a lock on our OWN gate! The other day I was cleaning and went to take some trash out, I try and take the lock off the gate and sure enough the wonderful neighbors super glued it. How kind of them. I about lost it. Tim called the cops we got some advise from them and pretty much I want to MOVE! I can't handle living in a row home and just need to get away from them. They think they are funny but in all reality I want to purchase a gun and shoot them. I'm not that stupid but that is the rage I am feeling lol. I know God is testing me, teaching me something, and I really need to stop and listen to HIM but this flesh of mine is so hard to control sometimes. Please pray for our situation. It is becoming very difficult not to feel bitter.

Church has been going well. Our bus route has had high numbers on it the last few Sundays which is encouraging. We also have had a lot of new visitors in our Teen Boy class. Tim and I really want to do more with them. We just need to use our time more wisely to plan things for them.

Well, lunch is almost over. I should get going. Lots of love and prayers.