Monday, January 26, 2009

Love that is unspeakable...

WOW! Its been forever!!!! Lets see if I can get you updated fast enough!

November 5th Tim and I headed from Glen Burnie, MD back to Pontiac MI. On the way we made a "slight" detour and stopped in New Heartford CT to see our best friends Rich and Kerry Zawadzki and their new addition to the family Eric. What a great time we had!! We spent 2 1/2 days with them and just enjoyed every minute. Its a blessing to have such great and wonderful friends! From there we headed to Buffalo, New York to spend time with Tims Grandparents, Aunts and Uncles and cousins. We always enjoy sitting and listening to the many stories from Grandma and Grandpa Lee. We finally made it to MI November 10th and were over joyed. God has brought us so far in the last 10 years (7 1/2 of them are marriage) that I cannot describe it.
When we arrived Tim started work the next day at the new location for 1-800-Pack-Rat (for those who do not know, this is very similar to Pods but better of course lol) and I was trying to recover from a very not so nice cold. We joined Shalom Baptist Church that Wednesday and I cannot tell you how much I missed Shalom. There is nothing like getting a full plate that overfloweth of MEAT from the messages! By the following week I still was unable to find a job and I was trying to figure out what God would have for me to do. The job market in MI is very scarce and the unemployment rate is one of the highest in the US. I mentioned to Dr. Carr that I would still love to work in his book ministry if he still needed the help. He was more than happy to let me help and he even insisted that I get PAID! I was more than happy to help and not be paid but he insisted...and I couldn't stop him :) So Ive been working in the book ministry ever since. I was able to clean out a storage room to make into my office (that took forever!) and I am organizing and creating so many projects! There is a lot into making something work! lol
Tim registered for classes January 12th and is loving going back to school. He keeps saying its a lot different going to school when you have been married and your money means something to you! lol

I cannot figure out the words to describe how much God has done for us. He has brought us through some of the hardest times I've ever experienced and I'm not fool to know there won't be more. God has provided in ways I could not imagine. He is more aware of what I need than I am! He has given me the ability to be a blessing to my Pastor as well as the church. I have made some of the dearest friends! My relationship with the love of my life, my best friend, my soul mate, my husband is stronger than ever before. Daily I learn to love him more and am thankful that God would allow me to marry a man that wants to serve HIM. I cannot put into words how much I have watched Tim grow. He has love for the lost, he has compassion for those who want to do right, he thinks about the best way to react to something, he stands strong for his beliefs and convictions. He's one of the most amazing people in my life. I pray that I can support and meet his needs so that he can continue to do God's work!

2008 ended with the birth of a nephew. Jonathan Kozil Lee was a special nephew (not that none of the other 7 aren't :)). He had a tumor that was 3/4's the size of his heart. The doctors didn't expect him to make it full term and he proved them wrong. They didn't expect him to make it through the natural birthing process, he proved him wrong, again. They didn't expect his heart to continue beating, and he them wrong, again. They kept him in the hospital for 10 days and not one thing was wrong. There was still a large mass on his heart but it was not affecting the way he lived or functioned. They released him to go home the day after Christmas! What a blessing. The family had him home, wire free, and was able to spend lots of time and love with him. January 2, 2009 Tim called me and said he was on his way to pick me up for lunch. I was not shocked to be going to lunch with my husband but it was just odd how it all came about. Tim arrived and we left. I knew something was on his mind but I just brushed it off that he was not having a good day at work. We arrived at olive garden and were seated. I asked if he was ok and he just looked at me and said "I have something to tell you". I didn't know what to think. To be honest I thought he had lost his job (thats the pessimist in me). He looked me in my eyes, grabbed my hands and said "Jonathan didn't make it". I was in complete shock, tears welled up in my eyes and I couldn't think of anything else but that beautiful precious face I had only seen a week ago. Jonathan had made an impression and a difference in so many peoples lives in the 17 days he was alive and the 9 months he was in the womb. so many people learned how to pray, how to seek God's face and it even brought family so much closer. This was the hardest thing I have ever had to face. I know it was harder for the Ohio Lee family (Ken, Kim, Kenneth, Andrew and Micah) but I had no words to say to them when I saw them Sunday at the viewing. They comforted me by saying that us being there is all they needed. It still brings tears to my eyes as I see the picture in my mind of a precious lil baby laying in a casket. He looked like he was napping. I never cried so hard in my entire life. I wasn't mad at God, I didn't blame anyone. I just knew that he was put on this earth for some reason. There were many reasons but I am thankful for the few hours I was able to spend with him. The family was thankful for the 17 days of love they were given. The Lee family is doing well. It is still hard but they have many memories and pictures to live with.

Today I am more thankful than I was yesterday. Today I'm more in love with my husband than I was the day before. Today I am seeking the Lord's face, more than I was the day before.

God is good!
With much Love and prayers!