Friday, June 26, 2009

From One Imperfect Person to other Imperfect People....

This is something I have been thinking about for a while. I know at times we may say or do things in anger, but I’ve cooled down and have thought this through….

I lived in this world for 14 years Unsaved and 15 years Saved. I was treated poorly and yes, there are rude, inconsiderate and uncaring people out there In the unsaved world. With that said…I have to say…I now understand what my youth pastor wife has told me when I was just a baby Christian. She told me that sometimes the hardest people to get along with or the meanest people can be fellow Christians. Boy was she ever right!

There has been a lot going on over the last…lets say…6 months within the Christian world I am surrounded by. I’m not going to point out any one instance as 1), there is no reason too, 2) there are to many instances even if I did point them out (which I wouldn’t) and 3) its none of your business (if I really didn’t mean number one!). If you read this and think I’m talking about you I PROBABLY AM!

For those of you who think that the leaders in your church are perfect, you’ve mislead yourself. For those of you who think that the Leaders in your church with children that their children should be perfect, you have once again mislead yourself. For those of you who think you are perfect and can go on the “Holy Ghost Patrol”, please, do us all imperfect people a favor and go move to your own stinkin island…somewhere far far away. For those of you who happen to be on your “Holy Ghost Patrol” if you honestly want to serve the Lord and maybe this is something you struggle with because of your young Christian walk, or lack of a Christian walk….let me remind you of a Story….

John 8: 1-11
Go ahead, look up the story. Jesus is in the temple with the people teaching them, and the Scribes and Pharisees brought a woman who was caught in the act of adultery unto Jesus. They told him that she should be stoned. Jesus wrote something on the floor (I don’t know that I would want to know what he wrote but I have my thoughts) and when they (the scribes and Pharisees) asked him repeatedly what to do Jesus said “…He that is without sin among you, let him first cast a stone at her.” With that they all left because of his words...

If only some of us could grasp that story and realize, that your actions affect so many people! Those of you who like to meddle in others business here’s some verses from GOD’S WORD..

Proverbs 18:8
“The words of a talebearer are as wounds, and they go down into the innermost parts of the belly.”
Proverbs 20:19
“He that goeth about as a talebearer revealeth secrets: therefore meddle not with him that flattereth with his lips.
Proverbs 26:20
“Where no wood is, there the fire goeth out: so where there is no talebearer, the strife ceaseth.
Proverbs 26:22
“The words of a talebearer are as wounds, and they go down into the innermost parts of the belly”

Talebearer meaning Gossip or Slanderer

How sad to be known as a Gossip or Slanderer. The Lord must have thought it important to repeat Proverbs 18:8 in Proverbs 26:22! Maybe that’s because its so true! When one goes around gossiping about others, people’s feelings are hurt, their hearts are crushed and they don’t know what they can do to show their face in church. Now some people are a little stronger and can ignore it, but even those people are still hurt by your slandering gossiping words!

I have seen it personally in my life. My parents are not in church because some people thought it would be good to talk about their daughter (that would be me) when they didn’t know my parents were around. I have seen teenagers run out of a church because they did not conform to a “standard”! I have seen teens run out of a church because some adults do not know how to keep their mouths shut! I have seen people run out of a church because some have no compassion for a struggling Christian!

I do not look at those who struggle with sin and think they could never serve God. I do not look at those who go out and defiantly Sin as a failure and think God could never use them. But what I will always do is encourage them and let them know I’m praying for them…why? Because one day God may get a hold of them, and they need to know that there are loving Christians who will take them back! I want to be like the Prodigals father…Standing there with open arms to hug their necks when they come back! For those of you who would rather stand over in the corner, pointing your fingers at them, whispering and laughing as that person continue to do wrong, just know, one day, you will stand before our Heavenly Father and give an account for what you did in life. I don’t know that I would want to have that on my shoulders…you know…you being the one that drove someone out of church!

Think twice before you gossip the next time. Because it might be the time you drive someone to a point that YOU will regret for the rest of YOUR life!

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

Ok, so it was a rough start, emotionally, physically and mentally. I thought to myself "why on earth are you going to try this??? You are just gonna let yourself and everyone else down!". That would be the honorable Dickson thought process (yes, my family is the KING of negative thinking!) of course. Well, I started it anyway, the whole new way of eating. Mostly Organic, no refined/processed food, drinking a TON of water and eating more often in less portion!

Some of you know of the struggles I have had for over 15 years. The unexplained weight gain, the moodiness (my poor family and husband) the non existent energy. I would play sports, hang out with friends, swim during the summer, and the list goes on. I was a normal teen without explanation as to why I kept gaining weight. Going on diet after diet with my family to try and lose weight. My eating habits weren’t the BEST but they weren’t so bad either. 15+ years later, I am married, have watched each and every close friend get pregnant, have a baby and live their life (So I take that back, I can think of one or two friends who have not had that happen just yet). I could not offer that to my husband, 2 miscarriages and 5 babies in heaven later, the end result is a marriage that almost didn’t make it and has been renewed by God!

With all the said, My friend Kerry, told me of some struggles a friend of hers was going through concerning trying to get pregnant. I listened to everything she said. Did a ton of research (which I wont bore you with!) and with tears of joy/frustration/sadness/and finally understanding, I realized this is what I most likely had!! I had been told by 3 doctors I had it, but they never told me what to do about it! Just said I needed to lose weight! That seemed to be the answer for everything!! Poly Cystic Ovarian Syndrome. Yep, that’s what I probably have, everything, and I mean EVERYTHING points in that direction! Every symptom that was unexplainable to doctors, like having soreness when someone would poke me in my upper arm (I remember onetime someone punched me in my upper arm just joking around, it wouldn’t have hurt a normal person, and I fell to the ground crying! It hurt so bad!), or the constant fatigue, constant hunger, constant weight gain (that at times wasn’t so gradual), the list just goes on!

Anyway, after all this research, a ton of books read, lists of foods that I can and cannot have, I officially started the diet last Monday (June 15, 2009). I am amazed how much I have changed. I understand my hunger a little more! I know to eat every 2 to 3 hours. I carry fruit around with me at all times! I eat a good healthy breakfast (My new favorite thing to eat right now is 3 hardboiled eggs with mustard! Don’t knock it until you try it! Lol) then have an apple, or a peach or a banana a couple of hours later, then another one of those same fruits before lunch, then a salad for lunch, then two more fruit snacks (the ones listed) before dinner then a nice and healthy dinner (I made really good turkey burgers the other night! I was impressed lol) and then a fruit before bed time. I drink a TON of water! I mean it!

Now, down to the nitty gritty….

I did cheat one night, had Wings from BWW’s with sauce (sigh, I felt horrible litteraly after eating them) and I did eat bread one day (we went to red lobster so I could have fish! I couldn’t stop myself I had to eat their biscuits!!! Lol). I do crave bread every once in a while, but I talk myself out of it and go eat a piece of fruit!

On the plus side…

My tenderness is not so bad
My joints do not hurt
I get a round a lot better
I wake up refreshed
I don’t find myself tired all the time (Its still there some though!)
AND I lost 12 pounds!!! All in one stinkin week!!
I know, I know its water, but hey 12 pounds of water is gone!!!

I have walked a few nights over the last couple of weeks. The greatest part is walking with Rusty (My dog) and he makes me laugh so much as he runs around the campus of MBC smelling everything, chasing ground hogs and squirrels and finding puddles to splash in! We have a great time!

So I write all this to ask one thing of you! Okay maybe two…

Please pray for me….that I will stay strong and continue to do well on this “healthy” way of eating. Maybe the end result will be a note talking about me expecting ;)
And two, Please ask me how I’m doing every once in a while. It’s good to be accountable to someone :)

Thanks for taking the time to read my adventure!

Your prayers are much appreciated!

If any of you have a good website for organic/healthy websites for recipies or tips that would also be much appreciated!!!

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