Tuesday, December 21, 2010

a heart that will heal...

I haven't been on for a while...a long while...there is a lot that goes into managing a dorm, being a secretary to 2 pastors and a college and being married to a wonderful guy!
Over the last couple of months, I have been maintaining to get through.  I have been so frustrated at times but all I kept saying to myself is "this will all be over soon enough".  I can't go into detail as to what it was that was pulling me down but what I can say....the Lord has taught me so much...
Most people take situations and look at the negative side of things. I am just as guilty and over the last three years I have realized that this is something that a preachers wife cannot have in her husbands ministry.  It would just ruin him. I have struggled for years with being a negative person. My family, though I love them more than words can say, struggle with this.  With the help and love of my husband he has encouraged me to see the world in a different light.  It was a simple phrase that snapped me into reality of my attitude.  Funny how simple words can have a HUGE impact....
With all that being said, this semester was better than the last, but the struggles were great. The verse in Numbers 32:23b "...and be sure your sin will find you out." never became more real to me then over the last three weeks. I have also learned that you can tell a persons heart by their fruit..."Even so every good tree bringeth forth good fruit; but a corrupt tree bringeth forth evil fruit. A good tree cannot bring forth evil fruit, neither can a corrupt tree bring forth good fruit. Every tree that bringeth not forth good fruit is hewn down, and cast into the fire. Wherefore by their fruits ye shall know them." I know we are not to judge, and most of the time we have no right to judge, but Jesus says in this verse that we will "know" them by their fruits.  I believe people can pretend to be a Christian for so long, and then their number is up.  When all you produce as fruit is strife, discord, lying, betrayal and selfishness do not be surprised when people want nothing to do with you. 
The Lord has shown me a lot about people.  He has given me a peace that only He can give and I can't be thankful enough.  The heart speaks volumes, you can't hide what it says, you can only pretend for a while and then the fruits of your heart (good or bad) will show itself, and when it does, one should know that you will no longer be able to fool the world....

My life verse..."Let your light so shine before men that they may see your good works and glorify your Father which is in Heaven".. Matthew 5:16