Wednesday, March 9, 2011

When God says no...

Most times we take a no from God as an insult.  When we don't get our way we believe that its not right and that we should get what we want.  We snub our nose at Him and cry and ask the question "why"....I have done this for most of the 16 years I have been His child....

Today tested me, I don't know exactly how to say it...maybe I tested myself....maybe I got my hopes up....maybe it was all valid....but today was a test....and I understand.  I mean my heart doesn't hurt any less and my desire seems greater.  I sat there, when the answer was plain to see, and cried.  I told God I know it's best.  I told Him I know His answer is perfect and I told Him I know He knows my desires and that His will and way for my life was far better than what I could come up with...and I believe it 100%.

Others have struggled far greater than I have.  Others have given more than I have.  Others have been more determined than I and the one thing most lacked, was their faith in God. I am so thankful for a relationship with the one who created me, with the one who's love is never ending, with the one who will never leave me nor forsake me.  He is all knowing, and gracious to such a sinner as I.  In the valleys he comforts me and on the mountain tops he spoils me.  I don't deserve His love...I really don't...but I am so thankful for it....

I'm thankful for His "No"....I really am....its just hard....

This song has really gotten me through so much....I first heard it only 4 years ago but it has come in my greatest times...and my hardest times....


GOD'S BEEN GOOD




Lately I've been looking back, along this winding road
To the old familiar markers of the mercies I have known
I know it may sound simple but it's more than a cliche
There's no better way to tell you, than to say


God's been good in my life
I feel blessed beyond my wildest dreams when I go to sleep each night
And though I've had my share of hard times, I wouldn't change them if I could
'Cause through it all, God's been good


Times replay and I can see that I've cried some bitter tears
But I felt His arms around me, as I faced my greatest fears
You see I've had my gains than losses and I've known more joy than hurt
As His grace rolled down upon me undeserved

God's been good in my life
I feel blessed beyond my wildest dreams when I go to sleep each night
And though I've had my share of hard times, I wouldn't change them if I could
'Cause through it all, God's been good

For God has been my Father, my Savior and my Friend

His love was my beginning, and His love will be my end
I could spend forever trying to tell you everything He is
But the best that I can say it is this

God's been good in my life
I feel blessed beyond my wildest dreams when I go to sleep each night
And though I've had my share of hard times, I wouldn't change them if I could
'Cause through it all, God's been good